I ought to have mentioned this before, but instead I'll just tell you now at the eleventh hour-

I am taking up the 24-hour-comic challenge today!

That's right, this afternoon I begin a comic.  Exactly 24 hours later, I stop, finished or not.

I have to make 24 pages, COMPLETE, in this time. 

I'll be scanning in and posting the pages on my Deviantart account as I finish them.

Wish me luck!

Apparently, some spoons are evil.

I did it.  I called to get help.  I did.  And there IS help for my problems.  And I did it all on my own.

Me. 

I can do this.

Suddenly the best birthday ever.

Here's a truth-

There are some things that are really wrong with me.  PTSD is the worst.  Something happened in my childhood, something terrible.  I don't remember it.

I haven't found a councelor yet who I feel comfortable with. 

There are terrible moments.  People have had my back during these times, helped me through what can only be called psychotic episodes.  This includes you people.

So, thank you. 

Apprently, asking someone to show up for the time of your birth (2:03pm) is extremely demanding.

Silly me.

All I have to say is that my GF can just fuck herself.

I love her, but fuck it.  I'm too busy for the drama.  She she can get onboard or leave.  In the meantime, I'm going to get laid, live my life,  and she can do as she pleases.

And there you go.

Warning, dorky science ahead.

This is one of those pseudo-science what-ifs that can be used to make interesting worlds.

Artificial and gravity and intertial control.

What if we could take motion, and the potential of motion, and treat it like water?

Water can more fast and slow in a small area.  It can be dammed and directed. 

Space ships often have "inertial dampeners" that prevent passengers from being smeared like toothpaste over the walls when a the ship is moving.

If you could "dam up" the inertia, or prevent it from acting upon the passengers (think about how we can walk about normally on a airplane going over 1,000 kph), you could prevent the squishy results of 10gs acelleration.

If it's damed up, then you have to send the energy somewhere.  Perhaps it powers the energy core?  Or maybe it's used to increase the ship's potential inertia to over the speed of light, skipping the whole Inifite Mass Singularity thing.

Yes, Geeky and mostly handwavium, but it SOUNDS real!

First up, this is not a whine journal.  I'm telling the story of what's going on in my life.  For the first time, really.

GF and I have a joint bank account.  I am the one who included her.  we did it because I have problems sometimes with numbers and a budget, and we would work together to maintain it.  Sounds good.

There was a problem with paperwork (their fault) that could have lead to real problems. She brought up giving her Power of Attorney over the account. 

After everything I've been through in life, this was NOT the thing to say.  I immidiatly said NO!  And she kept on trying to tell me what it was about!  I was freaked by the idea of doing that.  She got offended that I jumped at her(over the phone).

I snipped, but I DON'T want to give power of attourney to ANYONE.  She thinks it's about trust.  No.  If we did that, it would, at least to me, ruin whatever balance we have left.  I would feel like she had something on me, and everything would fall apart faster then it is.

Lj is a Goddess-gift.  If I didn't have this forum, I don't know how I'd do this.



And now-


Two things.  One, I am eventually leaving Ohio.  There is no community for me here.  Friends yes, but very few people like me.  And quite frankly, they treated me like shit because I don't plan to get an operation.  I find myself speculating on where my soul lies.

Second, I am seperate from my lifestyle.  I seem to be missing the bi-poly from my bi-poly-pagan-geek self.  I know very little, and I really want to start living who I am more throughly.  Advice is requested, and welcome.

Blessed Be.

I am a REAL PERSON!

I have the right to be treated with DIGNITY!

I was born Herbert McGihon IV, and my male self still answers to that name.

I am both and neither, Androgyne and Shaman.

I DO NOT HAVE TO PUT UP WITH THIS!

Ive been good!